I have (as you may have noticed) struggled to keep my blog up-to-date. My first plan was to post 'regularly' which implied a few times a week. As I struggled through semester 1, I realized that was an unrealistic expectations and began imagining a weekly post. Ha!
So I pulled some metaphorical teeth, and despite criticism of being a 'bad friend', working through an HFA diagnosis for my 5 y/o daughter, managing my home and full time teaching role, AND completing my Library Honour’s Specialist, I was able to post once a month.
I've learned through some reflection, that that's okay. It's not like I'm famous and have a huge fan base expecting posts (but those famous people must also do what works best for them). I began this journey for me. For the opportunity to reflect on my professional practice and to evaluate HOW blogging could make me a better teacher librarian, and I feel like I've seen some success with that.
Too often I find myself trying to meet the immediate needs of everyone but myself. I want to be the best teacher. The best mother. The best partner. But the reality is that in order to accomplish any of those self-imposed expectations, I must first be the best me. And I must accept that being a great teacher librarian is not a standalone role. ALL of my other 'parts' influence my decisions and learning.
I was happy and excited to attend the 39th Annual Reading For The Love Of If Conference this week and to meet some of the amazing speakers, authors and presenters. I was reluctant to sign up for one session though (The ADHD Mind) as I worried others would see this as selfish (my kiddo is also diagnosed ADHD). However, by attending the session I not only helped myself and my family, I also gained several valuable strategies and perspectives that I brought back to share with staff and students.
I keep learning and understanding over and over again that to compartmentalize ME is a disservice to all those I come into contact with. I am learning to embrace the whole me - and what a journey!