To be honest, I’m exhausted.
For about two weeks, the above line is all that I could write. I could say it was writers block, but that would be a lie. In fact, I’ve been continuing to work hard and have plenty of things to say and write about the experiences I’ve had lately, I just don’t have the time.
The reality is that each night I collapse into bed wishing for just a few more hours a day to complete all the things I wish I could have done. Just a few more hours with my children. Just a few more hours to get through all the reading I promised I could do. Just a few more hours to reach out to friends and family that I don’t see on a regular basis. Just a few more hours so I could find some time for me.
Instead I fall into a fitful sleep of stress and worry, often interrupted by my extra sensitive five year old who only finds night time solace in co-sleeping.
One of the best parts of working on my Library Specialist Additional Qualification this semester is that the adult learning model was honoured. Because I could direct my learning and make it applicable to my daily professional practice, this took some of the expected stress out of the course. Each week I was provided with clear guidelines while at the same time being respected to make selections appropriate for the learning I needed to build the program in our Library Learning Commons.
I continued through the course with a focus on 21st century teaching and learning tools, and found many resources that supported my research in this area. The Leading Learning: Standards of Practice for School Library Learning Commons in Canada 2014 Leading Learning: Standards of Practice for School Library Learning Commons in Canada 2014 was by far the most informative on-line resource I accessed. Additionally, the recently published text Digital Leadership: Changing Paradigms for Changing Times (2014) by Eric Sheninger was highly informative as I learned more about taking on a leadership role in my school. Through this independent learning opportunity focusing on the use of technology and leadership in my school community, I have made valuable connections with staff and admin, as well as learned more about the challenges and rewards of taking on a leadership role.
Despite the fact that I often feel like the tank is running on empty, I know that all that effort does not go unnoticed. I am thankful for the ongoing support of my course instructor who provides positive feedback, my partner in crime who is often a listening ear, the quiet colleague who reminds me in an email that our program is awesome, and the friend who sends a text to say keep it up – you are so valuable to our school.
As educators we work in a dynamic environment filled with challenges and rewards, and despite the juggling act that is our profession, we persevere.